I've always ask for freedom from my dear family
I always wanna hang out with fren since like standard 4??
always envy my frens who have the freedom that I've always crave for
and as for now I'm finally 17 goin on 18
I'm still trying to break the so called "caring membrane" where my family always keep me in
I know for the sake of my safety
I remember I told my mum before that I'll move out once I turn 18
to come to think of it, it is nothing but pure stupid
I have food, money, shelter, everything I can have not to mention unlimited source of love and care from my dear family
like wtf am i thinking last time?
i was so naive


and still I'm thinking of moving on to the next step
one of the reason why I choose apiit as my tertier stage of education
is cause it's near to my house
15 min drive
compare to Nottingham the 2nd choice, located in semenyih
it's far more closer
and now I kinda regret
I'm a jerk on freedom, and this is how I think
if i were to study far
and I've not even got any knowledge in driving
transport is a major prob
I'll probably will be staying at their hostel
which will have more freedom
YESH call me a jackass
but wtf I really wanna try surviving by my own and have FREEDOM

and now, for the sake of stayin with my own
I'm thinking to have my 2nd year or 3rd year degree study overboard
But u know what? for a peanut head like me, if my parent were to send me overseas
all they have in return is juz wasting a hell lot of money on me
cause I'm not a straight A student and not from rich family
and I don't see the need to study overseas for only DEGREE
since a hand full of malaysia universities is offering tons of full degree courses why go overseas?
i mean like this is not even a professional thing
I only see the need to study overseas when professional recognizing is needed erm let say
master maybe? PhD? MBA? all tat stuff


so how only I get to stay on my own???? the biggest possibility is during study time
urgh!