QuanTitative Methods *warned* lame post

I'm kinda freak out now
Math is so not my thing
let me tell you from A to Z about my history with MATH!

MATH started with 1 + 1 = 2 in my kinder garden years
which I miss it truck loads! that is so my standard of MATH lor! wtf

then I move on to subtraction, multiply, and dividing numbers on primary school
which is good to me

then it started to get nasty during my secondary school
I was like hella happy when I know I get to use calculator for math
like CALCULATOR IS THE BEST INVENTION EVER!
but then I was screwed by the calculator!
curse u gao gao for betraying me!!

okay wtf here is where my chaos in math comes in
yea as y'all can remember.....
form 1 and 2 and 3 in secondary school in Malaysia
students are only allow to use calculator for paper X (is it paper2? or paper1? wtf I don rmb, so just let it be paper X)
soooooooooooo eff up math is secondary school started to have alphabet, instead of having only numbers, where you can count every single one
x? y? z?
Math started to have columns, graphs, charts, diagram, figures and all those deep shitty stuff
how can I not have a calculator as my sidekick to friggin help me out

so yea, I was demotivated by this fact and to top it off with eff up lazy attitude of mine
I dooze off sleepin in class, never do my homework, never try to do understand it, never listen to the nice teachers
and I end up, screwing up my 3 years in math

then I proceed on to form 4 and 5
which u can use calculator for all papers
and I to spend a wee bit time with my calculator
(not to mention I glam my calculator up, no kidding, I used to own the hottest calculator in class wtf)
this actually capture my attention, as well as motivates me to do math
and so I did it, fullstop

and I have to admit form 4 &5 math is kinda easy
there's the section of question where they have 5 ques and we have to answer any 4 of it
u can score jackpot if u correctly complete that 4 ques

and yes, I started to do math, but I screwed my base in math in form 1 to 3
which is very crutial to have a good base, where I came to realize it when I was doin math in form 4
so math have been hard for me, by learning more advance math without a base
but still I mange to score a B for SPM from a D in PMR

so yea, the main prob will be my base

after SPM I though I can kiss this sicko MATH crap goodbye
but I was wrong! VERY WRONG

math is so not cool with me
but then, when I enter college, I have to tackle with some ADD MATH!
oh the horror!!!!!!

for semester 1 MATH
of course never the least, I f*ck it good and get a f*cking F+

and for semester 2 now,
I have this module named Quantitative Methods which is basically math with an edge
wtf gave it a vogue name, *so please math, be good to me*

and this is so driving me up the wall

previously, I've post something about my QM Assignment that I only started to do a few hours away cz I was too carried away with my holidays
and yea, my assignment was fuck up as well
and now I dont think I can even score F+

I'm freakin out cz there's an exam on thursday
and I really really dont wanna remodule this shit!
I'm really sick of math rite now
I really am trying to do math, but doing math without base is real painful

Math I hate you!