heyya people!

this is goin to be a rant post,
which I hvnt been doin since..eons ago
and there's a reason why I choose not to bitch/rant in my blog

but first, to those who are not interested in these sort of post
kindly exit
simple...

wokay! the reason why I hvnt been blogging bout....erm what shud I call this sorta post?
I guess u can call it bitching post, but not entirely, cause I'm just telling how I feel on certain stuff
but some people will find it offensive

then........ people will start bitching behind the back
and so on ya diii ya daaa
u get the jazz?

but I had enough
I give no fuck to what people think of me
I'm sick and tired of hiding MY OWN SELF

at least I'm real, I don't put on a poker face
I really just don't get why people are just so opinionated! like negative opinions
and some, their perception is like....*silent* I dont even know how to start

yea, what I'm trying to say is....for example lar
sometimes when someone say something real about his/her ownself but it's something quirky
people tend to act like it's a normal thing to do in front of u,
but on the back, they bitch about u, like OMG she's doing this?

for say,
girl A told a group of girl that she sleep naked every night
then that group of girls will be like "oh cool, is it more comfortable? wont u feel uncomfortable"
which I like to call putting on a poker face
then when those girls have their own group chat without girl A
they will be like, OMFG what is she thinking? sleeping naked? like what, shes a whore or something? eww!

like why on earth do u hv to back stab or even want to put on a poker face
I really cant stand these sorta people

some times very normal things like, wearing padded bra is taken as a huge issue
which is soo not okay, it's like the the most normal thing.
even wearing a nu bra become an issue *give me a break*
those bitches will prolly gonna say like, " what? is she trying to make her breast look bigger or what?"
push up bra also padded lar, u don't wear one ar? u siao? lol instead I will think that she's the weird one

WTF not?

I know, cause sometimes I'm in that bitchy group LISTENING to them bitching
but I often, just often....keep quiet or say just let it be or get over with,
it's really nothing to bitch about

but I cant entirely say I dont bitch,
I do bitch, I admit it, but for things like these, I dont.
more likely, when something crazy odd to bitch about
and it must be logic!
like, she stole someones bf, she stole her panties so on and so fort

I dunno, but this is my point of view, my perception
I really don't geddit
or maybe I'm those more open minded type which accept things better?
or maybe TOO open minded....
idk, u tell me

oh ya the reason....totally forget bout it
the reason being is because, people are just goin to judge me by my rant post
and I hv to say I was being stupid to care bout how ppl think of me
I used to care less or not even give crap on what peeps think
and that is what I'm goin to continue

not goin to pretend I'm alright when I'm not
and spit everythin out! well not everything la, personal stuff leh
I also mean on the blog la

I'm reading back what
but I find this post kinda pointless
LOL
I think only I know what I'm trying to say here

well just a rant post

xoxo
EstC.